My Body...It Aches

I said to him last night or this morning (i can't remember)
that i'm not sure how long i can keep this up.
this pace.
these long strides.
because each night, once kep is asleep,
i've no more to give but so much more to do
and i regret, come morning,
that i didn't do all the more that i could've
the eve before.
but my legs, they ache to lie down
and my back, it aches to lie still
and my core, it aches b/c it can take no more
and all because
each part of my whole is neglected.
serious neglection.

so i told him that i need to focus on my body
and building
so that i can handle going at a pace that
feels good at the end of a day...
ANY day...
long or short...
easy or difficult...
my body needs attention
so that it can attend my life.

I would like to be still

I would like to be still

in my mind

and in my heart

So that i might hear

and be able to listen

to what is being said

to me

from Him.

I would like to be still

so that answers can find me

and i might nod my head

and finally understand

why i feel

the way i do

and why i think

what i think.

I would like to be still

so that someone could embrace me

with soft arms

They could wrap me in love

and hold me just right

so that i might feel

and believe

that i am loved.

I would like to be still

so that i could start again

the way i was meant to start

and so that i could take steps

in the direction i was meant to go

toward all things

that fill me up.

I would like to still mySELF

and still yourSELF

so that we might connect

and love each other

and feel each others energy

flow through and back again

as close as we could possibly be

without becoming one.